I've all-too-often seen - and.. have dealt with, far too many times - cases in which someone finds interest in someone other than their partner, and chases it, seeming to increasingly disregard their partner's well-being the closer they get to the new interest. This can be understandable - I guess - we all know what is best for ourselves. But for god sake, be a fucking entrepreneur for once.
Nothing makes me more bitter than when someone moves on from a relationship without telling their partner. So you're afraid of losing what you have - That makes sense. But if you really want to move onto something new, then take a leap. Sever the tie and then chase the next. Don't just fucking move on and drag your partner along until you feel you don't need them anymore. Do you have any idea how degrading that is? Betrayal is one thing, but that is only one thing. One aspect among many that tear someone apart when you do that to them.
If it's not bad enough that you were too much of a coward to take a risk - securing yourself from that risk by using the one you're about to turn away from with nothing to compensate - but in that you frolic away with your newfound (and usually shallow) passion, leaving behind the one who was faithful to you, leaving them, that is, with nothing. Nothing, but self-doubt followed by loathing, and no one to turn to for comfort, thus leading to a feeling of abandonment and, very soon, a rapidly-rising and long-lasting hatred for everything that is the one who betrayed you.
Out of time.
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